Sunday, December 12, 2010

Love Letter which was never send - Part IV

As they say “Sadness flies away on the wings of time.”

She soon realized that even her world may appear to have collapsed around her, strangely enough; she also noticed that most things still remain the same.

For her it was a new beginning, she saw the world with new perspective. She noticed how her parents loved her. How they are expecting good things for her. She had a younger brother. He used to always make her smile. Her Granny, she was a sweetheart, she always used to say “Beta, My last wish is to see you get married to your dream boy. Apart from that I have no reason to be alive”.

She was stunned how one person had made her fall in love so much, that she didn’t notice the rest of the world. Now she believes, world indeed is a beautiful place to live.

She learned so many things after her break up. She was stronger by thought and emotions now.

She still has chances in her life. She will laugh again, She will live again and who knows she will love again (she thinks so..)

Down beneath her, she was thinking what had gone wrong in her relationship. Was it too much of space, she had given him. Or was it something that she had listen and followed everything He said.

She still remembers how she had lost her own identity, her hobbies, just for Him. And that what she has learnt. “In any relationship one should accept the other as they are”

If they are not able to accept them, how they will fall in love.

She started a new life, with new hopes.

Sometimes she used to question: “Why it was me?”

But later she got the answer; the God wanted her to learn the lessons. There is no bad times in life, it just a struggle to achieve the Good thing/time in life.

And soon she set new goals in life. Her life had taken a new turn, and that too in the right direction.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Love Letter which was never send - Part III




She closes her eyes and all the memories, the good times flashes in front of her..!!

It was a sunny day, she with her friend was roaming in the city mall and when they enter in some shop, she heard a voice …

Yes that was the voice of Him …Calling her friend ….

And her friend introduced him with her. That’s how they met .. At very first instance only she was impressed by him and she saw twinkle in his eye.

Aww it seems it was just yesterday ….

A tear roll down from her eye ..She blinks and her minds wanders….

He: I love you .. I wanna marry you .. You are the one .. you are my guardian angel.

She: C’mon ……

He: shhh!!

{he gets down on one knee and holds her hand }

Will you hold my hand for the rest of my life?

Her heart jolts.. and she break into pieces . .she cries louder and there is no one to hear her.

Her love-lies-bleeding ……!!

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Love Letter which was never send - Part II


She picked up the call, yes it was him…. She was so content after hearing his voice. A tear roll-down from her cheek initially she missed few words, rather sentences what he was saying. She felt that she was so much in love with him. And he shouted “ u there”

“yep”

“I want to say u something, what I guess is our relationship is not working fine”

“????”

“I mean I don’t feel the same way “

“What does that mean?”

“hey no need to cry or do some drama, what I want u to say is I am not able to love u the way I use to. Now things are different.”

“Suddenly why are you saying so?” *a tear roll down from her eyes”

“Because you were not there when I was in pain, I asked you so many times to come down here, you always wanted me to cuddle you, and most importantly you did nothing for me. And now I have started comparing you with my friend, d girl next door. She is younger to you, still she has done so many things in her life .. blah blah blah….”

Her heart felt a jolt and all the memories flashes back in her mind.

“You there, there???? See now u don’t wish to listen what I am saying, ok what I want to say is I can’t take this anymore. Its over, its over”

beep beep beep beep. The phone gets dead.


She sits on the floor then and there itself…..

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Love Letter which was never send


Honey ,

As they say nothing is free in this world so my letter too comes with a terms and conditions. Which I would be mentioning afterwards.. :-)

I know I am not so good in framing words and sharing my feelings, but honey I expect that you'll understand what I meant..

I love you with everything I have... And I love everything you do for me.

I love the way you behave too sweetly, even if you don't like my actions...

I love the different names by which you call me...

I love when you scold me and you want me to be perfect.

I love you even more when you say U want to marry me...

I love when you say all your heart out...

I love you more when you share bitter part of your life

And my feelings are growing stronger...with every move you make.

You are the first thing I think of each morning when I rise, And you are the last thing I think of when I close my eyes in the night

You are my guardian angel you always make me smile.. Your eyes are so pure and true.

And your voice makes me melt. Especially when you say I love you..

You've touched my heart and soul....

I am totally a different girl from the day you came in to my life..

Nothing seems to be impossible in your love..

Just knowing that you care
makes me feel like I am in seventh heaven

(And Sweetheart now the terms and conditions.....)

What I expect from you is just love me, Even if I am not at my best virtues.

Some times my mood would not be good.. At times I would cry.

And I could be rude when I am down..

I may not speak or may say bitter words when I am angry..

Please do not get hurt because that time I might be out of my mind..

Honey, I just want you to be there with me and do forgive me.

I want to spend my life in your arms..

Wish you were here...!!

While writing this my heart is pounding...!!!

Thanks for loving me...

Yours….

{She was about to complete writing this letter and the phone rang}

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Wish you were there


If you were there honey from the start

How much I could have enjoyed my life’s every part

I wish you were with me from childhood time,

We could have played ghar ghar where I would be your wife.

If you were there when I was in my adolescence

Then I could have share my chocolates and cakes


If you were there honey from the start

How much I could have enjoyed my life’s every part

And the time would have move ahead while playing the games

And sooner we would have enter our teenage,

You would have grown handsome and taller

And I might have become prettier and smarter ;)

we would have passed our schools together,

And we would be always with each other,


If you were there honey from the start

How much I could have enjoyed my life’s every part

In college we would be sitting on same bench,

Sooner and later we would have fall in love

After graduation we could have search our job,

And we would have settled in a downtown.


If you were there honey from the start

How much I could have enjoyed my life’s every part

We could have married each other,

And our childhood games would have turn into reality

We would have blossom each moment,

Together … since the childhood..


If you were there honey from the start

How much I could have enjoyed my life’s every part

But as some1 said its never too late,

After so long wait

I have you in my life

And here I say I wanna spend my rest life with you

And then there no looking back.

no looking back ,

no looking back…..

“ And then my phone rings, I get up and realize it was just a dream, life is not so simple as this poem.”

Monday, October 4, 2010

Poem

So people as I had promised, here is my own poem which I wrote 2 years back, But it is still close to my heart .. so here it goes :) :)


And do suggest a relevant title to it ...

*****????********


दिल मे कितनी बाते है,
इनको मै कहु कहा?

जो मेरे पास राज़ है,
ऊसे मै खोलु कहा?

मन् मे इतने दुख है,
उन्हे दफ़नाऊ कहा?

जो खुशियान है,
उन्हे मै बाटु कहा?

कितनी यादे है,
उन्हे सहजकर रखु कहा?

दिल मे जो दद्र् है,
उसे दिखलाऊ कहा?

मन मे जो सवाल है,
उसका जवाब ढुढु कहा?

बुरी आदते भी है,
पर उन्हे मै भुलाऊ कहा?

मेरे सपनो का घर ,
मै बसाऊ कहा,

लगता है किसी साथी की तलाश है,
पर उसे मै तलाशु कहा?
- नेहा

Monday, August 2, 2010

Is this God expecting from us?

Last weekend went to Shirdi, Nashik and Trabakeshwar. Visiting this places after almost 3 year and was shock that how come these pilgrimages are getting converted into the money hub.

The Shirdi temple was full of gold. While doing darshan, I overheard that recently some big personality donated this gold crown which cost around 75 lakhs. And my mind started wandering from that moment. Then in my whole trip I was just thinking that what’s going on this sacred land.

We proceed to trambakeshwar which was our next destination and here what I see was worst. They don’t allow us to go inside the main temple. If you don’t want to wait in queue for your turn then you have to pay 1000 bucks..!!! and every pandit is busy in kalsarpa yog pooja .. Whatever, I agree that this is there bread and butter. But when I go inside the temple what I see the temple is not clean. And there is a spider web inside the main temple which was growing bigger. No cleanliness. And people are donating milk in litres to the idol which is simply going wasted with water. And everywhere the smell was milky milky.

Till now my mind was so upset that I came outside the temple and didn’t felt like going back. Here in India people are poor that they don’t get one time meal and here gallons of milk is going in drainage!!

Is this what God wants? I guess God never said that he wants gold crown or milky abhishek’s . He wants us to do something for the needy. People donating gold to temples can instead open the school or hospitals.

Oh ghosh ..!! Simply amazing how people go crazy in donating things in temple to please god!!

And then I realised why my father is never interested in going or donating something in temples.

Why my mother calls maid’s children for lunch on festival. Why my parents go to old age home on my grandfather’s death anniversary instead of calling the society people or the so called Brahmins and do show off.

I am not saying that one should not visit the temple or should not believe in god. But I am saying that we people should think logically and practically.

Sometimes I feel I amso lucky ? Because I am not born in that family who just blindly believes and do things which people suggest like : Doing this pooja, donating this, Wearing this.. blah blah

People No offence but I personally don’t believe in these stuff. Or probably my upbringing was like that.

Anyways,. Friends we live in India, the nation which has so many inspirations. Even I too know few of them personally. Just wanna convey that people please please wake up.

This is not God is expecting from us. We have to change ourselves and the society for better cause. What you think?

Just we have to question ourselves that “Is this What God is expecting from us?” And I guess you will get the answer.

I have decided to do something from my side and I have started working for it.

By the way earlier I never use to think these stuff. I guess I am growing now :)