When I look back now..

This weekend went to near by bazaar and saw kids doing shopping.

Soon realized that schools are going to start…. The market was full with the school bag of pokemon , doremon and all d new and Chinese cartoons. (Sorry I can’t remember their names) … Whatever but it reminded me of my school time..

Awww what the beautiful phase of life it was………..!!!

Wondering will those days will come again???

Remembering the school times and the most awaited summer vacation.

How cool the life was..! No worries .. no tensions..

Ofcourse homework was but still its is far more better than the office work ;-) Isn’t it ..??

There was so much to learn those days... like how to Ride a cycle, play games, Sing prayers, obey elders, respect teachers, welcome guests, talk politely, share our toys and things and most importantly to say thank you and sorry where ever needed :-)

And yeah..!! We had so many reasons to go on 1^st day of school, to show our friends new bag, new bottle, new uniform and of course new lunchbox. Arrey.. how could I forget the new compass box and the items inside it, the jel pens, eraser with brush, pencils..!!aww small small things..!

Even in rainy season, u always wanted to go school so that u can wear ur rain coats, or u will get chance to use ur umbrella which u always insist to hold it all by urself and carry it wherever u go.

I still remember in rainy days me and my sister use to make the paper boats while eating the yummy and hot hot pakodas with chutni. And when the rains would stop.. we would go out and put those handmade boats in water.. it use flow with the stream of road water. wow Still I can picture that scene. It was a bliss to see ur own paper boat sailing.

This particular part of my bachpan could be relate with the famous gazal of Jagjit Singh “wo kajaz ki kasti, wo barish ka pani”

Truly koi lauta de wo din..!!!

And I realized that where the innocence is lost.We just have to find the happiness in the small small things..!!

Just wanted to mention an incident when I told my friend that I am gonna right something on "bachpan ke din" and he replied that then your blog would never end..!! because neha , u r still a kid..!!

My first reaction was that " how the hell he said this .. but then I was happy as sometimes I don't wanna grow up. Sometimes doing something kiddish makes me feel good..!!!

By the way how could I complete my blog without mentioning something “filmy”.. So here I start .. Do u guys remember the scene of Jab We Met when Geet asks Aditya to drown the girl’s pic and says even though it is kiddish u would feel better..!! And HE does..!

So people my message is never ever kill the little child inside u..

My life in Mumbai...!!!

My new blog is inspired by the movie Wake up Sid. Yeah by the way inspired is not the correct word, but you can relate it to the kokana's article "A new girl in the city" ... same is the case with me as I am also new to mumbai. J J

But unfortunately there is no Sid in my life and I don't live in that sea facing lovely flat. My experience is complete different.

So this blog is not about any love story or any professional struggle. Its about the different people and the changing times.

Here I start... by the way sometimes I sound so filmy. In my early blog too I had mention about rang de basanti movie. See I am so inspired by our bollywood movies and hero. Oops sorry if I am giving you wrong impression.. no no I didn’t relocated to mumbai for trying in bollywood. :P :P

Mumbai is the dream city for many of them and don’t know why I never used to liked it. When I got through the interview here due to some personal problems I had join it. I was consoling myself that I do have hell lots of college friends here. I am gonna enjoy and all. But the scene was completely different. Everyone out here is so busy that they don’t even have time for you. And you are lonely. You have to find your new friends. When you expect from your very good friends and they turn you down. U just start hating the place and you feel so lonely.

Imagine a life where u r shifted to new place. When ur old friends turns you down, When ur roomie is dominating, wen ur job is tedious and when ur health is not good. You have good earning but u spend more. You buy expensive and branded things and they do retard..!! what will you call such life.!!! Ofcourse hell .. rite?

I am living such life and still trying to find happiness in small small things. Trying to enjoy what I have. Spending time for myself so that I feel special. But nothing is helping more..!!! Leave it. Thats my destiny and it will change soon.

Wondering how the life changes. Once you leave your nest(home), you think you ar a free bird, you can fly high now. But the bitter truth is as soon as you take off ... You have to bare the burden of many responsibilities. And these responsibilites increases day by day....!! and soon you realize that now its time to build our own nest and settle down.

Therefore my mind says me that if you have so many problems why not get married and settle down. And for girls this is the best option. Isn’t it?

The groom hunting for me started. My weekends in Mumbai was booked for the blind dates arranged by my parents..!! I know it sounds weird but yeah I call them blind dates only. And these are sometimes so boring that you just want to run away but you can’t. The painful part of this date is you can’t be yourself. You have to show you are so perfect. You have to talk about good things and be formal.

Soon I realised what the hell I am doing? If I am not able to handle things or if I am feeling lonely then will marrying someone will solve the problem?? Isn’t it like running away ? I should have courage to face them. Getting married is not wrong but I should have a better reason for it.

Wondering , earlier I was a care free bird. I never used to think seriously about myself and my life. But now the times are changing. I used to crack stupid jokes and used to do stupid things...!! now I am getting serious. Y?

I must say everyone should spend time for themselves to realize what we always wanted to do and never did it. To realize still the sky is open for us. To realize that its your life and you have to take your own decision. To realize that one day you will get what you want. To realize that money is not everthing. To realize that hardwork always pays you back.

And this new city taught me big lessons in small span of time.

Very First Blog..!!

Its been long time. I always wanted to write blogs, but don't no why was not doimg it.By the way I have many excuses. But I myself don't believe in those now.

Sometimes life is stuck in a boring routine. And then you are so use to live that life, for everthing you will make excuses that u don't get time for this and that.

Once I used to love writing my thoughts and poem. Not on blogs but in my personal diary.

Few days back I realised that what I am doing." Just living a lifeless life".. I knw this sentence is bit confusing but yeah I was living a lifeless life. Until I met a very good person who brought old Neha back in me. Once I used to inspire people. Once I was ideal for them.

I remember Aamir dialog in "Rang de basanti" ki "college ke gate ke is paar hum zindagi ko nachate hai aur dujju taraf zindagi hume.. tim lak lak de tim lak lak" . Thats so true. In my case I started accepting it and started dancing on it. The corporate culture, the metro city life, over spending on clothes, celebrating on weekends, ... all became part of my life. These were gradually killing the real Neha inside me. I started taking life as it comes.

No aspirations.. no dreams.. no feelings..*sighs* and I am realising it now. Still wondering where they were gone. Its almost 2year..!!! and thats too long to realise this. Anyway its never too late.

Now I want to be myself. And I love to be myself. So why not start from today.

You know what I was thinking that I can't write as good as that person or this person. It took little bit of courage and self realization that why this comparison is coming in my mind. Isn't blog is a place where one can write what one feels. It is not a competition.

I know there are many of them still living like me. So people never think that what others will say, just be yourself and start doing the things you always wanted to.

Life is too short. I don't want anyone to regret things afterwards as I am.

Moreover I don't giive damn that someone is reading my blog or not. I am getting good comments or not Becuase I am just doing it for myself.

The world starts with you. Because if you are not there then the world is not there for you.

Soon will write more.. And will update my blog with my poems too. :)