Wednesday, April 25, 2018

Will you ever come back?


Its been a month without you Papa, there are so many questions which are not answered and are in our minds. We have missed you every single day and yet survived!! Never ever thought this day will come in our life so early!  I need some answers, whom to ask!

What had happened, Papa?
Did you already know it?
Did you think about us before going?
Did you call our names?

So many questions are unanswered…
Why you left us?
Why didn’t you stay?
Why god didn’t give us second chance?
Why didn’t you prepare us as always you do?

Had you been survived?
                If you had visited Doctor
                If you were in different city
                If you had some medicines
                If you didn’t take it lightly

Where are you now?
                Are you fine?
                Are you looking at us?
                Are you around?
                Are you proud of us papa?

Lastly, will you ever be back?




Monday, November 20, 2017

ख्वाहिशें




ख्वाहिशें

कभी उड़ने की,
कभी जुड़ने की,
कभी जीने की,
कभी मरने की

कभी स्थिरता की,
कभी दृढ़ता की,
कभी प्रतिबद्धता की,
कभी विस्तारता की

ख्वाहिशें
कुच बचपने वाली,
कुच किशोरता वाली,
कुच वयस्कता वाली,
कुच बुढ़ापे वाली,

रोज नई,
रोज गयी,
कभी पुरी,
कभी अधुरी,

कभी भुल लेना,
कभी भुला लेना,
कभी उमीद बना लेना,
कभी सपना बना लेना

कभी थकना  नही
कभी रुकना नही
बुनते  रेहना
बदलते रेहना
जीते रेहना


ख्वाहिशें
न जाने कितनी
न रही जिस दिन   
ऎ ज़िन्दगी
मेरा अन्तिम
सलाम समझना !!!


 - Neha

Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Time Flies with you...!!!



My little world are you,
I just want to spend each moment with you
Just you… forever and ever
But
Yes there is a BUT
But
You want to explore world
Fly high
Need individuality
And
I understand
Even I was like you
I would not be able to hold you back
And
If I would then I am stopping you to nurture



Time flies
Here you are now...

Graduated from cries to mumbling
From mumbling to Talking
Talking to being a chatter box
My love you have accomplished so many milestone

Graduated from Pram to tricycle
Tricycle to bicycle
Oh..!! You have grown so tall,

Graduated from nappy to diaper
From diaper to diaper free
Ahh!! That’s the big achievement of us

Graduated from mummy’s lap to daycare
From Day-cares to Playschool
From crying days in school
To wanting to go on weekend too
Congrats on that victory of ours…!!

You my little bundle of joy
I still remember the day when I felt you for first time inside me
When I hold you for first time
When you cried, 
walked, 
talked,
And
list goes on and on
But 
I promise,
I would always create memory for you (or me)
for each stage of your graduating years
It would help me to look back
And
catch few moments of past
Because 
Time flies with you my world..!!


Sunday, December 7, 2014

Being Mother



I miss the feeling of being pregnant
I miss you inside me Kaashvi

Its not you its me
Your existence inside made me special
It was a bizarre feeling
I was on cloud nine
I miss you inside me Kaashvi


I had felt you the way no one would ever
We use to share everything
Heartbeat to hobbies
Food to Dreams
I miss you inside me Kaashvi


I was with you 24 by 7
I was protecting you
oh! Cannot forget your first sensations, heartbeats and kicks
You were so tiny but  meant world to me
I miss you inside me Kaashvi

I always wanted a girl child
Who will understand me
I use to talk to you 
You use to respond with your kicks
I miss you inside me Kaashvi

You were born as angel in june
Now have to share you with everyone
I cannot be with you every time
And yes I am possessive for you
I miss you inside me Kaashvi

World is good but still cruel people exists
I know its too early to tell you
Tell you about good or bad touch
But I have to I won't be around every time my darling
I miss you inside me Kaashvi

Sending you to daycare, school, outside alone
Just haunts me
I keep praying for your safety and well being
I wish you were still inside in our small and beautiful world
I miss you inside me Kaashvi



Sunday, October 14, 2012

55WordStory : Part II


More stories in Part 2…

Hope you enjoy reading:

Theme : Hotel
Her profession: every night new client, new hotel. Today as she proceeds to the hotel room, the door was open. He shouts: “Come-in, I am taking a shower, you undress yourself.” From behind he grabs her naked body and then a sheer silence. Next day: A brother and sister committed suicide in hotel.

Theme: Bed
Bed time stories were ritual she and her dad use to follow every night. Today after 30 years when dad asked her to talk at night as he could not sleep, she replied: “I am tired, may be some other day dad.” Unaware of the fact that it was his last night.

Theme: Poison
They met because of mutual friends (or destiny) at a pub; he asked her what her poison is? She replied Wine. He invited her at home to taste his wine collection. She visited and loved them. She invited him for wine festival at wine yards; they jumped on grapes and ended up falling in Love.

Theme: Airport
He was teasing her “I am leaving on jet plane, don’t know when I’ll be back again”. He held his 7months pregnant wife in his arm, whispered “Baby I hate to go”. To chase his dreams boarded a flight to NY. Destiny had different plans. Yes it was 9/11/2001! In a flash everything was finished.

Theme: Magic
Everyone adored Niharika which made her mother-in-law jealous.
She used to curse:”You ill-fated have done some black magic to my son, since the day you arrived nothing is going fine”
She gave her best to win family’s heart but got worse.
Niharika cannot take this anymore, her solution was: Suicide.
Black Magic worked on her!

Theme: Silver
It was their silver anniversary, 25 years of togetherness was celebrated in 5 stars, Anju was showing her Rado watch with 25 diamonds studded as gift. Everything looks perfect, business family, Rich and royalty on flip side Anju and Ravi had no children, Ravi was gay, married just for sake of society. “Perfect Couple” Huh

Theme: Seduction
“Truth or Dare”, “Truth” “You lost your virginity to” Slyly Anil said “I would choose Dare”. Anu sighed as their eyes meet.
He cannot forget night when Anu(best friend) was drunk and won’t let him go. Seducing kiss followed by passionate love making.
Then her words: “We made mistake”. His love forfeit for her Friendship.

Theme: Blood
He used to come home drunk every day.  She longed for him, famished although he does not care. He would hit her and would ask for more money. Neighbours were fed up of this daily chore; once asked: “why you tolerate him?” She replied:” He is my blood, how a mother can disown her child.”

Theme: Taste
Against his parents wish Rajiv left home to find his own career. They wanted him to become a doctor or engineer like normal kids do. Today they are proud of him; he is world’s number one... His job was to seduce the taste bud of the people. Yes He is a chef. He tasted Success

Theme: Deception
Her deceptive smile had caught his attention in a crowded pub. He went to the parking lot following her, miraculously the seducing look on her face changed to violent one. With Gun she shot him to take revenge of her sister’s rape and death. She broke into tears, tears which were waiting for this moment.

Theme: Night
He was regretting why he didn’t paid attention, instead of roaming with her. Tomorrow is big day and still he watched movie, was busy on phones and was roaming around. Wished he could reverse time and start from the start. Sigh! He decided he would Up all night long to prepare for his Maths exam.

Theme : Relationship
He lingers for me, cares for me, and understands me. We share a close bonding; if I am sad he would play games, make cute faces or just sit beside me. He is my shadow. His selfless love is above all happiness. Our relationship does not have name, he is my dog, my faithful partner

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

55WordStory : Part 1


Since many of you are not aware of my new stories that I write for http://55words.blogspot.in/ where you have to write story in just 55 words.
Daily there would be one theme and you have to scribble your imagination in shortest fiction story.

Here are my few stories from past and I would be posting it on my blog as and when I get time.
You can read my stories on above website with @Nehu handle and of course there are many awesome stories out there J

Happy reading

Theme : Café
Blind Date: “How would I identify you?” “I am wearing a white shirt and blue jeans, sitting in corner table of CCD.” She was as usual late, found him. A formal handshake and the order “Cappuccino" both said at same time. Apart from their choices, their interests, opinions everything matches. After few months she marries Him.

Theme: Irony
Famous social worker, his job was to save girl child. He wanted world with no dowry, no sati, no rapes… He worked for women empowerment. Every night he sits beside her daughter (Photo) and proudly tells success story with tears.
Irony of his life 10years back his daughter was burnt to death for dowry.

Theme: Game
An emergency call @1:00 am, production issue, client call, critical functionality is breaking, Manager called, everyone was in office at 1:30am. Girls without makeups, guys in night pajamas, half awake, half asleep working to fix the issue. 3am things were in place. Manager: Why did this happen? And Blame Game Started. Welcome to IT Industry

Theme: Possession
Lily 10year old was feeling miserable, her only guardian angel, her supporter died today. She loved Grandpa and would never forget stories told by him, time they spent.
On Flipside her dad and uncles were fighting over the possession of property. Crying she left room with Grandpa’s Pillow and Shawl -her priceless assets forever

Theme: Vacation
Arrange marriage and first vacation. Introvert he was, she was shy. He offered his hand, she trusted him. Hand in hand they walked on lovely beach. Silence broke into the words, words into feeling and then it turned in Love. Love which would never lasts. Vacation to cherish lifetime – The honeymoon

Theme: Suitcase
She had packed all her bags and suitcase; He was on his way home. It’s been 7 months of marriage they were so busy with office work, meeting relatives that they didn’t get chance to go for honeymoon. Phone rings, it’s his number, she picks. He died on the spot in accident said the caller.

Theme: Fight
He was fighting for freedom. He had conquered the cruel people by non-violence. We call him Bapu father of our nation, Gandhi.
That was taught to little Baburao who lived in village. He wanted to see India with Bapu’s eye. Today he is fighting against corruption on behalf of us. We call him Anna

Theme: Disappointment
Whenever they visited mall, she would stop by jewels shop and view beautiful necklace. He worked hard, saved single penny and gifted her expensive necklace. She was more than happy, now she wants another one; to his disappointment she valued money than anything else. His love went in vain; her greed grew day by day.

Theme: Sin
It was because of them we are here. The world would have been the simple place to live if Adam and Eve did not had that sinful apple. Their greed to know more, their lust for future, tossed the world all around. Our origin was sinful and our karma?

Theme: Angry
They fly and fight, they are cute and tough at same time… They are in different colors and everyone loves to spend time with them; you carry them with yourself on cellphone. The game, the brand – Angry Birds! Angry? Angry on us to ruin Mother Nature but they still entertain us. Strange!!

Theme: Stories
“Ram left pregnant Sita in jungle to prove his nobility to his kingdom.” Ramayan Story annoys Nisha – Why we respect Ram instead of Sita? Ram could have left his kingdom, for his pride poor Sita had to suffer. Who knows Ram exists or was epic but Sita yes we have lot of them around us.


Saturday, June 23, 2012

Innocence to Maturity


Innocence to Maturity

She was splashing water from bucket
He took mug from her…
Said one should be like water
Water?
Yes,
You have to dissolve things inside you,
Your secrets, your feelings you should not share them with all
And you have to keep flowing
Whatever comes on your way take it along..!!                                     

She splash water on him and ran away.

In the backyard she was playing with clay and sand
He came and made different animals
She was amazed with her Dad’s art
He explained the most interesting thing of the life is
You have be flexible enough in your life
Sometimes you have to forget one role to perform other
Role?
Yes when you would grow
You would be a sister, daughter, wife, and mother

She smiled …!!

Other day in park he accompanied…
Dad does See-saw also teach us to?
Lets try…
As soon as he sat, she was at high end,
Enjoying her victory,
High and low is part and parcel of life
You have to be content in every situation…!!

Dad if you are by my side, I would  always win..!!


After 25 years
She, She still remember each lesson he taught…

Today,

She flows like water
But
Forgets her starting point

She mould herself in different roles
But
Forgets her original identity

She tries to smile in ups and downs of life
But
Forgets the meaning of happiness…!!!

That’s the life of every Woman..!!




She misses her Dad..!!
She misses the feeling to be treated like a princess
She needs a company which would make her feel protected!!


 *inspired by satyamav jayate and the play vagina monologue!!!